I dreamt of you I dreamt of me You arrived welcome (but uninvited) I called (fearful) Beckoned (hopeful) come join us And You entered (but) Stiff Arms yet folded tight across your chest a Vain shield around your cold hurt embittered heart (I’m sad for you I’m sad for me) Come Lord Jesus Come Heal Restore Renew Make New As Only You Can Do I'll wait Am waiting Will wait For You
Spun out
I never imagined (in my wildest imaginings) Imagined I I would be one One of those Spun out of the church (the family of God for crying out loud how does this happen it's wrong on at least a thousand levels hyperbole intended) Well Not THE church (actually) A church I’m at a loss Poppa I don’t recognize myself I’m wearing clothes that don’t fit (because) I loved her so Still do (but) She didn’t love me back (not really) Because There wasn’t room for me (the me they imagined was welcome) But Not the me that actually was/is (he/them/they lower case intended made sure of that) Poppa hold me Hold me close I’m just so very sad (also) Thank you for new spaces New faces Who look on poor wretched me With love Love that feels like sounds like smells like looks like tastes like You You You (and so and still) I cry out to You Heal this broken soul Make me whole Help me trust Again
Ghosts
I’m haunted by ghosts The ghosts who ghosted me Whispers of Loneliness Loss Shadows of Love (unrequited) Pass over My soul And Leave A Hollow Ache
Could Would Should
When the things that could be Can’t When the things that would be Won’t When the things that should be Shan’t I press into You I press into You My Rock Redeemer Lover Friend
Breathe
Earth I long to lie upon you And Breathe in Latent oxygen Sheltered in your stones Restore me Re-create Renew
All That Glitters Is Not Gold
I watched you Holding court In the place Where she should have been Smug Broad smile The confident shell (hiding deceit and theft and and) I watched you My smile thin and wan Forced Dredging up forgiveness to accompany it from my tired worn out soul I watched you You got the brass ring You did (Not gold mind you) Brassy Plundered Ill gotten gain I watched you and wondered How long Oh Lord how long Will the guilty go unpunished How long I forgive I forgive I forgive I forgive I forgive I forgive I forgive
Transformation
Ten seconds with You The actual You (not the idea of you) You And I’m healed Transformed Holy Spirit Come (and keep on coming) trans·form /tran(t)sˈfôrm/ make a thorough or dramatic change in the form, appearance, or character of.1 1. https://www.google.com/search?q=transformed+meaning&rlz=1CAWAFN_enCA858&oq=transformed+&aqs=chrome.1.69i57j35i39j0j46j0j69i61l3.12233j1j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8
Identity
Beloved
Adored
Loved
Seen
Adopted
Accepted
Belonging
Redeemed
I am who You say I am
Morning Walk
Weeping may endure for a night, But joy comes in the morning. Psalm 30:5(NKJV) After a day and a night and a day Of sorrows and bitterness remembered I awake and The sun is shining The birds are singing The fish are swimming The dogs are barking The children are playing The frost is melting The trees are budding and I remember that You Are Love And You order And You know All things well All
Shattered
He heals the wounds of every shattered heart. Psalm 147.3 (TPT) When the centre Is shattered By Sin Sloth Silence Selfishness Squandering Oh Poppa Repair Restore Renovate Resuscitate Rehabilitate I wait for you I'm bored of my brokenness You Who make all things new Make my heart new Please
Colleen R. Jantzen 