Poetry – Page 5 – Colleen R. Jantzen

Oh Hey! I didn’t see you Standing there Wanting/waiting/wishing for Me to see You (standing there) I couldn’t Blinded as I was By who I Wanted you Thought you Believed you To be (or not) To be Such arrogance I repent I repent I repent

wreak verb \ ˈrēk also ˈrek \ wreaked; wreaking; wreaks Definition of wreak transitive verb 1: BRING ABOUT, CAUSE wreak havoc You didn't mean it Couldn’t have Wouldn’t Yet I’m wrecked By your wreaking Heal me Poppa Heal me Heal me Heal me Me I am too small under its weight

dilatory adjective dil·a·to·ry | \ ˈdi-lə-ˌtȯr-ē \ Definition of dilatory 1: tending or intended to cause delay dilatory tactics 2: characterized by procrastination : TARDY dilatory in paying bills Dilatory Can I apply it where/when I want To pain (delay) To aging (hold back) To suffering (obstruct) To death (not yet) Nope

“Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. 
And be thankful.” 
Colossians 3:15 New International Version

Open the door
Just a crack
And let it in
(You can do it)


Jesus 
Your peace will permeate
If I 

Let it
If I 

Accept it
If I 

Receive it
If I 

Ask
If I 

Rest
If I 

Stop


Your 
(the real deal no cheap facsimiles because no dollar store junk will cut it )
Peace

Peace within me
Peace around me
Peace above me
Peace below me
Peace beside me
Peace to guide me

It’s there for the asking

Let His peace
Rain/Reign

Over Me


Thank You

(let: verb: not prevent or forbid; allow)

All of my adults are driving today Transitions Feel still to me like fragile spaces (where anything can happen) I run Getting the phone call A knock at my door Scenarios And wonder if I’ll survive Another One I clamp down fear And Turn to You And Try/Cry for peace I call for angels to keep watch And Everyone In their lanes And Deer in the ditches And Drivers awake Till you all Come Home Get Home Are Home With Me

Da guns dey gotta go Dey gotta go Dey gotta go Cause Children s'posed to live S'posed to live S'posed to live Da guns dey gotta go Dey gotta go Dey gotta go Cause Going off to school To get shot To get shot Is wrong On every level Da guns dey gotta go Dey gotta go Dey gotta go And No amount of words and No amount of freedom Make 'em right Make 'em right Da guns dey gotta go Dey gotta go Dey gotta go Hunh

In May (the month of motherhood) Guilt and regret rise As I am reminded of all that I Didn’t do Didn’t see Didn’t hear Didn’t notice Didn’t respond to The ways in which I wasn’t Fair Kind Wise Loving Generous Enough Jesus I bring all that to you The whole hurtful mess of it You who are unshackled by time and space Heal Restore Make up for My egregious lack In Your strong name I bless my children (and my children’s children and and and) With Your healing Your wholeness Your love Your peace Your joy Your restoration Your life In Your strong name I pray Amen

In all the begatting That Went on/goes on/is going on/will go on Mothers are there Carrying Birthing Suffering Celebrating Cooking Cleaning Feeding Clothing Nurturing Correcting Cheering Weeping Worrying Praying Hoping Fearing Teaching Training Holding Releasing Doing Work (that is generally) Unseen Unsung Unrecorded Unpaid Yet Vital (no one lived/lives/will live without it) Worthy Work Unsung (generally) Except by The One Who Sees all Knows all The One Who Made you Prepared you Equipped you Called you Sees you And Rejoices Over the Relentless Sacrificing Faithfulness Of you He does