Tears tremble Threaten to spill At every remembrance Of An old grief Yet gargantuan (I should be over this by now) I’m tired Embarrassed Overwhelmed Afraid Ashamed What if I start crying Will I ever stop
Gargantuan
Gone
Stop We mark her passing Our humble Queen has gone Ushered now Into the presence Of greatness At home At home At home (image: https://www.apple.com/ca/)
03.09.18
The day you left The world (my world) Was torn asunder And heaven (my heaven) Was made whole See you soon dearheart See you soon Cause (with the Lord a day is like a thousand years and a thousand years is like a day) Hurray
Transitions
All of my adults are driving today Transitions Feel still to me like fragile spaces (where anything can happen) I run Getting the phone call A knock at my door Scenarios And wonder if I’ll survive Another One I clamp down fear And Turn to You And Try/Cry for peace I call for angels to keep watch And Everyone In their lanes And Deer in the ditches And Drivers awake Till you all Come Home Get Home Are Home With Me
Leaving
I dreamt of you Real and ethreal Your broad strong capable back Leaving (again) And I Breath in new courage To face the day Again
Too
You're not enough You’re too much You’re too young You’re too old You're too sexy You're too plain You know too much You know too little You’ve got two x’s You should have one y You don’t fit in You’ll never fit in Unless we say you do (and we won’t can't don't) Jesus Jesus Jesus Help me crawl into our Poppa’s lap I need to hear Him say again You’re my child Too And I made you Just so My child My child My child
For Jill
I miss you I miss you No one else will do I miss you
Auntie Fern
Homemade bread and Ice cold well water (tastes of iron but still) Garden cukes (sliced just right) Butter Salt mmmm
I Dreamt Of You
I dreamt of you I dreamt of me You arrived welcome (but uninvited) I called (fearful) Beckoned (hopeful) come join us And You entered (but) Stiff Arms yet folded tight across your chest a Vain shield around your cold hurt embittered heart (I’m sad for you I’m sad for me) Come Lord Jesus Come Heal Restore Renew Make New As Only You Can Do I'll wait Am waiting Will wait For You
Ghosts
I’m haunted by ghosts The ghosts who ghosted me Whispers of Loneliness Loss Shadows of Love (unrequited) Pass over My soul And Leave A Hollow Ache
Colleen R. Jantzen 